I Love My Son... Just Not Enough To Be A Father To Him...

It is shameful how men make children and refuse to help provide for them or be active in their life, but can be perfectly ok taking care of kids that’s not theirs. Can constantly make excuse after excuse as to why he can’t pay his child support or how he misses his son so, but can’t book a load to go see him. Then it’s the piece of women these types of men take up w/ those who clearly are bitter about their own situations. So b/c their kids dad don’t take care of them they feel it’s perfectly ok to let this man take care of their kids all the while taking from his own and neglecting his fatherly duties, but what can you expect from a supposedly grown woman who sat calling a 4 year old child every name in the book, but then tried to hide behind God. How any man feels it’s ok to let any woman tell him he can’t be apart of his child’s life i would never know, but i guess when that child is a threat her happiness those things tend to happen. Considering you been w/ a man for a few years and when he took up w/ you told you he had 2 sons, but he didn’t know where 1 was or how to find him, but come to find out he was down at the dad’s parents all the time. How many holiday trips down to the parents were cancelled b/c the son was there? When i took my son to Disney for his 5th birthday how it was so important for you to be there. I can only imagine the lies your family heads were filled w/ after they saw the pictures of the trip. For so long i’ve put up w/ these silly antics brought on by you and your lack of knowing what it is to be a responsible man. It was you who begged to keep the child that i was ready to give up. You sat there using every excuse as to why we should keep him even reminding how your other son mom did you regarding your son.. Only to find out the truth from your family as to why things were as such. You find it completely ok to abandon your kids for women you constantly bad mouthing only b/c of what you think they have. How you lay your head down at night and rest not knowing what’s going on w/ your own child is beyond me.. Maybe if your momma had raised you right to be accountable and responsible vs upholding all of your misdeeds just maybe you’d be better. When you 1st put Earvin Trucking together you claimed it was to give your son’s better, but yet sit owing just about $13,000.00 in child support and that’s just my son. When you took sick earlier this year down in Miami you felt the need to inform me considering we weren’t even on speaking terms I still woke up to a picture of your armband stating I’m in the ER in Miami. Just like when you had you accident a couple of years ago again I woke to another picture and message. Yet you are the same one who doesn’t bother to pickup the phone to see how your son is doing or what he’s doing. Before you took up w/ that Tracey person things were never like this you attempted to do something even your family who once use to burn the highways up going get that lil boy now buys all your lies, but i’m suppose to care if he sees them. For years i’ve done all i could to ensure he knew who you were and even though you always played broke i shouldered the burden of providing for him and never denying you your son. To think how you that night your current wife Tracey sat there calling your son a child who was there long before her time all the things she called him and you not once open your mouth, but not understand why I request you have supervised visits. I can get why she’s so hostile towards people she’s never met b/c her desperation allowed her to buy all your lies. Guess had she gotten to know you vs what she thought you could do for her. So you keep running around these highways w/ a warrant over your head and keep making people think you are such a success when you are stealing from and neglecting your kids to do it. To think of how you do your own child, but soon as you are down on your luck readily exclaim if it weren’t for my boys. To think of how you have done those 2 and to announce you now have a 3rd son like you are father of the year or something, but since you say it’s not by the wife guess they’ll be 1 more neglected child whose mother will be fighting you to take care of.. It’s just sad how you live your life Antonio faulting everyone, but the 1 person who created his own mess. Here it is a year now since the last time you laid eyes on your own child, but readily play part in lives of kids as you say don’t even know where their own dads are. How do you look at yourself as being a man when you fail to man up to your own responsibilities? Never ask you for anything, but to simply be a father to him yet you make it a battle. How a person who claims to love you, but clearly have no love for your child look on as you do your own flesh and blood as you do? I wonder how helpful that person will be once your years of running from paying your child support catches up to you. Will that person be as willing to take from her own as you did yours? Any good parent is very selective about who they take up w/ no good parent would find it ok to be w/ anyone who doesn’t take care of the seed God gave them. Eventually all you have done against that child will catch up to you and those looking on will answer right along w/ you.. You readily try to make this about money, but honestly since that lil boy has been in the world it’s been me providing for him and you stealing from us. Last year you offered to help by booking me 3 loads of which i picked up and delivered using none of your equipment, but when the payouts came you stole the money. Then offered me to run w/ you for 3 weeks and you’d split the revenue, but all came of that was us being stuck in California over Labor Day. After that is when i finally decided to be done w/ you b/c your every intention is to steal and make things hard for my son and i. Not long after that you decided to pop up at my mom’s house thinking i was there, but yet make all kinds of excuses why you can’t go see him while i’m on the road and i say you can go see him. Countless Christmas, birthday’s and school years have passed and nothing from you, but you can be the very thing for another’s kids you refuse to be for you own. To think of the emails that woman have sent me trying to make herself appear to be so much, but as a mother it was hard to wrap my head around the fact that the person saying all those things about my child is a mother also. I guess the old saying misery loves company is true since she herself stated she had her own deadbeat daddy issues and to think how you have clearly created our situation to be like hers. We butted heads over the years since that lil boy has been in the world, but never was it ever like it is now. No 1 person should be able to alter a situation that clearly was before them and had nothing to do w/ them. You had 1 son when you met me and not once did i ever interfere if you asked i told you the right thing you should do as a father no matter what you felt about the mother.. You go around talking about Nate and all his child support issues, but you do no different.. You do all you do to make others think you are something, but it’s been 7 years now and still you make the same excuses as to why you can’t see him or help provide for him. If you haven’t gotten it together by now i guess you should hang it up..